Monday, March 21, 2011

fathers sage

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Assignment 2

Exercise one

I remember feeling, on the surface the filth had gone; the painters and cleaners had removed years of visual grim. But miseries residue remained well imbedded in the linings of his walls and soft furnishings The house was a like a vessel, years of filth soaked the walls linings like possum skin soaked in urine to remove the hair, a stench that new paint could not remove.

Continued thumping in the bathroom ceiling and a sense father had not left the building this is not on the list of sorting out an estate. He didn’t seem to bother the cleaner and painter so much; I guess he knew why they were there.

He certainly knew why I returned, this time with cherry. The heavy black dog presence was felt immediately once cherry entered the house. Moving around the lounge holding burning sage, my father’s anxiety quickly transcended over me.

While Hyperventilating and overcome with emotion, Cherry stood over me praying and disbursing sweet smell of burning sage. A bird flew into the hall startling my children as cherry identified the strongest areas of the house.

His presence was the strongest in his bedroom, as cherry moved towards the far side of the room then returned to the door, she commented how strong and septic his presence was here. As she turned away her attention moved to the far corner an area he was found, and he certainly had not left.

She went to say something, then spun back around and begins addressing him.

He was not moving, he knew he was not supposed to stay here and that had something to do with me.

Cherry quietly said to me, “you have done the right thing, this is important”

And my brother did not need to know, as far as he was concerned the priest had been and that was done.

When I returned a week later the house was unrecognisable. For 30 years I had only known the house feeling dark and oppressing. We leave our essence behind; we must leave this earth at peace with ourselves and the time we have spent here.